I went to see a movie recently and noticed how much focus there was on signs and luck and meant to be's. I was wondering... do people really buy this? It is just a big joke that I may be mistaking for something a bit serious?
For me as a Christian, it was a very serious thing. What was God's Will? Was this in His Divine Purpose? Lately I have been refusing to entertain such ideas, opting rather to use reason and good sense to try to make decisions.
Regardless, lately as we are trying to purchase a house, so many people have said things to me such as "if it's God's will" or "it could be a sign" or even "if it's meant to be." And I think how amazing it is that people really think this way. It just goes into my understanding of peoples use of faith and supernatural possibilities to explain the uncontrollable or undesirable things in life. If it works out.. great! If it doesn't then God must have had a better plan.
I have always thought this way. Perhaps I thought this way up until reality smacked me in the face and I had to admit that as far as I could tell, leaving it in God's hands was not working.
Praying with my own children and speaking with children of friends of mine I realize how much what we teach them about faith truly molds their world view. They worry about demons and angels. They really love Jesus and Mary. It is starting to really bother me that faith blows simple problems out of proportion and gives eternal significance to average experiences.
My latest dilemma is that all of my old Catholic friends are finally starting a family support group and my husband wants to go and I could really use getting together with other moms and such... but how do I go to a faith group when I refuse to have faith right now???
It is just torturing myself? Is it prolonging the healing process? It seems to me like it is probably just ripping open a scab. I think I need to have friendships that are not based on faith, but it is easy to jump into these types of groups.