This Easter is especially different for me. For the last four or five Easters I have had less and less a sense of connection with the spirituality surrounding the season of Lent and Easter and more a realization that they had very little to do with my real life.
The disconnect between my husbands understanding of faith and my own is growing. I want to teach my children to love and care for others and be humble. But I also do not want to teach them that it is ok to allow people to suffer for some greater good. This is in essence what Easter does. Yes, there are times when a hero is needed. It is noble to risk ones life for another, but too often I see this manifest in peoples life to mean that we need to jump through certain hopes and rituals and penances.
Is the need for Christ's death similar to that of child sacrifice? Why would God need a death to appease him? Is he not all powerful? Why does this make sense? It doesn't to me, at least not right now.