I have told myself that I wouldn't become a fanatic about anything in my life ever again. My life of Christian zeal took almost everything I had, including my sanity.
Since I have abandoned faith I have become so much calmer, more peaceful, happier.
But, I see so many of my friends still caught in the religious loop. Trapped in their hopes and fears in things unseen. Do I want them to have to get to the point of complete psychological break before they accept that it is all a myth?
This is where I am. I have not made a decision yet. I long to find a way to peacefully confront these delusions.