Sunday, February 23, 2014

Passing Time

Life really is short. I am waking to this reality in a new way lately. My mom has been diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. I never dreamed we'd be facing the possibility of her dying any time soon. In a moment, all the plans change.  She is the closest person to me other than my husband and children.

It's shocking. It's eye-opening. It makes all the time we worry about stupid things so empty. She has taught me so much.  She gave me a love for art and talent for portraits.  She also gave me faith.  I see much how hers grips her. But, she loves. She gives.

Life is short. We only have this very short time to enjoy, love, learn, embrace, teach, inspire, and be a little part of this universe.

My goal is to spend it well. I hope to share with others what I have learned.  Yet, I have a sense of relief that I can only do so much. There is no eternal pressure, only love for others.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Moving On

I have come to an understanding that when someone comes to the conclusion that religion is a myth, a major transition needs to take place in that person's way of thinking.  As for me, this blog was my attempt to process it.  This blog, Catholicism on the Rocks, was subtitled, "taking a break and thinking it through." Well now, I've thought it through.  But, I see, I am not alone.

I've noticed many others feel the need to just "get it out there" that they don't believe anymore and why and what ramifications this has for them and others in the world.  Why is this? Is it perhaps because such self identity is based in religion? For example, there are answers for everything.  Who am I? God's child.  Why am I here? To know and Love God. What am I to do?  God's will.  Now that we are free from faith, we must redefine who we are and what we believe to ourselves and to others.

But, this doesn't necessarily last forever. At some point we are over it. Now, discussing it becomes optional.  We can move on with life and what we want to make of it without constantly referencing our former lives. So, here I am, moving on!  To life!