I am married to a believer. It's tough. Tough because, any time he mentions religious subjects, goes to church, prays with my kids, it is a trigger of my past. I have to swallow and endure something I do not believe in. I would love to move forward and leave behind my religious past. I would like to forget all the hours I spent seeking God's will or trying to understand theological metaphysics. Talk about following a rainbow.
So, why do I stay? I love him for who he is and what his intentions are. He is there for me. He supports me and cares for me when I am sick. He loves my kids and they love us. We enjoy many things together. We have history.
Sometimes it is very hard. He doesn't understand my point of view on faith. We almost have to avoid the subject completely. I have to work hard to make sure I stand up for myself and not let religion still control too much of my life. It's a sacrifice. I hope it is a good one.